The year 2020, after taking away legends like Rishi Kapoor and Irfan Khan, has taken away another gem of Bollywood, Sushant Singh Rajput. I have seen many news pieces and posts on social media about Sushant Singh Rajput and how he was in his personal life. Some are saying he was quite reserved and a classic loner while others believe that he was the life of the party and a great performer. Some believe he was a typical introvert, while others think he was a classic example of how an extrovert behaves.
I don’t want to get into the debate of which of these statements are true and which of them are purely fictional. I’ll let you be the judge of that. What I want to do is add something new to the discussion, which might help explain what drove Sushant Singh Rajput to the most difficult decision of his life.
It is quite apparent that Sushant Singh Rajput, a rising star of the Indian Film Industry who is no longer among us, was a complex personality. Infact he was the very definition of a complex personality. From getting an All Indian Rank of 7 in AIEEE (All India Engineering Entrance Examination) and then moving on to Indian Television and ultimately Bollywood to prove his penchant in a vastly different field than what he started in, Sushant was a person who in technical terms would be called a polymath. Before describing his lifestyle and how he behaved in other people’s company, let me reiterate what a complex personality is.
Common indicators that you can utilize to identify a complex personality are:
Heavily introverted nature mixed with selective extroverted bouts
Tendency to overthink and delve deep into a topic especially abstract ideas
Excelling in their chosen fields unveiling unprecedented ways to success
Extreme Curiosity which contributes in their expertise in many fields
Moody to the extent that you would think they have multiple personalities
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Some people who had a complex personality are Albert Einstein, Leonardo Da Vinci, Stephen Hawking etc. Though these are extreme examples, that’s only because they are extremely successful examples of what a complex personality can be. Perhaps given enough time Sushant would have gone on to their level.
Anyway, if you observe carefully, Sushant Singh Rajput fits almost all of these indicators. Sushant was known to be a classic loner on a movie set, taking time to rehearse his dialogues in a corner. If you go through his Instagram, you’ll find that he was heavily engrossed in topics such as Quantum Mechanics, Fractal Geometry, Yoga Tantra, and many more. This interest, unlike many people, wasn’t restricted to superficial knowledge but went quite deep. On top of this, everybody knows how successful Sushant Singh Rajput was after doing many big banner films and giving blockbuster hits like M.S. Dhoni: The Untold Story, Chhichhore, and Detective Byomkesh Bakshy. Finally, if you notice, many of Sushant’s interviews show him getting agitated at small things and then becoming calm all over again to talk about a topic or incident he likes.
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Okay, so Sushant was a complex personality. Does that mean every complex personality is bound to have Clinical Depression and ultimately commit suicide? Well, to be honest, yes, and no.
Being a complex personality means a person is not satisfied with the repetitive and monotonous routine of life and hence endeavors to find the next challenge that can satisfy him. This more often than not culminates into a desire to understand the unknown and trying to answer the existential questions of the universe like how was the universe formed, where did humans come from, etc. These questions take some people to deeply spiritualistic routes and others to the brink of insanity. These same questions took Sushant Singh Rajput to topics like Mandelbrot theorem and Quantum wave phenomena, all of which are snippets aimed at explaining the unknown.
This is how complex personalities work. While other personality types find joy in the smallest achievements and events of life, people with a complex personality continue trying to find the next big moment that can fill the hole of curiosity brewing inside them. That is why Sushant, even after achieving so much success both in college and show business, was not satisfied with where his life was going and was constantly battling with his mental health.
Let me break the bad news to you. A huge proportion of complex personalities like Sushant Singh Rajput deal with mental health issues, the most common of them being Depression and Anxiety Disorder. This happens because a person with a complex personality sees right through people, their narcissistic motives, and their vindictive nature. Hence, they end up concluding that they are alone in this world, and there is no one else like them.
So does that mean all complex personalities have their fate sealed, and their destiny shall take them to either the door of death or a corner room in an asylum? No, not at all. Spider-Man says, “With great power comes great responsibility.” In the same way, with great complexity comes a great need to maintain your mental balance. Trying to find the answers to questions which nobody has been able to find until now is not a bad or unhealthy thing. Infact there is a need for many more people like Sushant Singh Rajput in our society who dare to walk outside of their comfort zone and rage against the norms of this world.
However, this jest with the unknown needs to be paired with a practice of positive mental health, especially by complex people like Sushant, whose brain works in extremes only. Overextending your mind and brain beyond its limitations and capabilities is good, but then you must also keep its health in check. You can’t overwork it. This is why meditation and yoga have been advised in a plethora of Hindu sacred texts as ideal recovery methods for deep intellectual quests. I know many possible reasons are being thrown into the hat for Sushant’s suicide, which I will discuss in a separate article.
Until then, I just want to say that I am very sorry to hear that Sushant Singh Rajput, a man of such immense potential and diverse talent, took his own life. Now that he has gone, I wish only two things. Firstly I hope he wakes up in a world where he gets the peace and tranquility that this material world couldn’t give him. Secondly, I hope our over competitive world stops a second after witnessing this great human tragedy and changes its ways to nurture great personalities like him.